Andddd today, teachers' day celebration. I didn't watch! (I was blocked by the stupid stairs haha). So anyway, I ended up sitting next to Nellyn, my partner in Madness! And Nellyn told me a story!!
It makes no sense! Like stuff usually does when we talk. hehe. I shall tell you the story!

"Once there was a man who had two wives.
One wife was very young and the other was very old.
The man was middle aged.
Every morning the young wife would pull out all his gray hair so he looked as young as her.
And every night the old wife would pull out all his dark hair so he looked as old as her.
The man went bald."

HAHAHAHAHAH typical Nellyn! And, well, she told me I'm the only person mad enough to appreciate the story. I find it hilarious.

whee.

When I'm at my lowest, you pull me up. Thanks for being there for me. I don't know what I'd do to myself if I didn't have you. I loveeeee youuuuuuu! (:

Today was so slack at school. All the teachers (well, almost all) were involved in the secondary one to three's cyberweek presentation rubbish, so the "responsible, dependable sec 4s" were left alone to do self-study.
HAHA so me and a bunch of 4C2 and 4C1 people played basketball! Yup, we were studying PE. Hehhe. It's so mad, half-court with no boundaries! And Frances is psycho. Muahaha.

Stupid Taiwanese kid!
Watch this and hate him too!!
I wanna play like him!
grr.

http://210.61.218.117/grm.cdn.hinet.net/xuite/56/0c/12067215/blog_13366/dv/237948/237948.wmv

Anyway, English Preliminary Examinations today. haha. PRELIMS
.
Why did so many people pic the open-ended topic "Dreams"? It's not that great a topic. Oh well. I did the discussive essay!
"What are your views on the setting up of casinos in Singapore?"

Lets hope I get a repeat of my midyear marks, or even better! Haha I need to score well.
DUHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHh.

NIC IS SO SO SO HAPPY NIC'S FINISHED HER FUCKING ART!! EVERY SINGLE BIT OF IT!! and who cares if some parts of the prep work is so fucking sloppy I don't give a fuck!!! WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!


And I had a really nice day today.

Thanks (:

"What is life?

What is life to you?

To me, life is not just the physical aspect – being "medically alive"; life is about having something to life for. Life is about feelings. About emotions. To me, the four main emotions in life are happiness, sadness, anger and thoughtfulness/confusion.

When people die, it is said that they go through a dark tunnel towards the light and their life flashes past their eyes.

My painting depicts the time just after a person has died, when the spirit floats away from the body, which is symbolized by the heart on the floor. The spirit is heading towards the light at the end of the tunnel, but it has paused to reflect upon the emotions of its life."


ok YAAAAYY!! My art is done. Well, almost! 90% done, I've still got some prep. work to do. But I'm almost there!! :D
Nic's a happy kid!
And, well, I rock ok! I've had a month and a half to do it, while everyone else has had eight freaking months! Go me! hehe.

Got the Ronin album today.
Not bad, I must say. And nice packaging.
Go get it. Support the local music scene.

I feel kinda weird listening to it though. If you know what I'm talking about, good for you! If not, then you won't have to know, dearies. (:

4C2 '05


Uh huh, yeah, the form teacher and her four favourite students! hahaha.

School's ending soon!
I mean finally, really ending.
Ok well, in less than three months.
What's going to be ahead for me?
I don't know.
My stomach ties up in knots thinking about it.

Oh well, on a smaller scale, the weekend is here!! YAAY! Art is due on monday. After Monday, no more art coursework! Am I happy or am I happy? But I have to scramble madly to finish my prep. work these couple of days.
Maybe tomorrow.
I'm such a procrastinater!

This week's been kind of weird.
I haven't seen much of my friends. My so-called ones anyway.
My seating partner's been absent for almost the whole week. What happened to her swearing that she'll come to school every day huh?
Some of my classmates are dears.
I've gotten through the whole day on two hours of sleep, no naps, not even in class.
For the first time since secondary one, I've left nothing - no books, nothing - in school over the weekend.

I haven't gone to a gig in ages, not counting Baybeats. I haven't moshed since 301204. That's a long, long time.

I feel weird.

Kaiya likes walking under clean laundry. Retarded.

I bet you all had no idea Nic could be so sappy and sentimental.

Did this for art. So stupid, what a waste of time. Oh well, at least the photoshop collage was on 'any topic of your choice'. Thanks to the many, many pictures of Jimmy Page in my computer (and the song, of course!), it was easy to come up with a topic.

Had English 'O' Level oral exam today. The main topic was on family/grandparents. What shit. Haha I had stupid questions for the conversation part. "Tell me about your grandparents", "are your grandparents independent?", "some people confide in their friends, others in their family. What about you?" and "family is the basis of society. What are your views?"

It was easy, except for the last one. I really didn't know what to say, my mind just blanked out and I kept staring at the examiner's gross thick pastel purple eyeshadow, so I kind of skirted the question, spouted some crap about how families are the most important thing and how they influence an individual, and the examiner said "alright, thank you, you may go." Heh. I'm pretty sure there was another question, but I can't remember.
Someone jog my memory?

*

I'm such a selfish person. And it pisses me off. I get jealous of other people who have more time with what I love. When someone/something is really precious to me, I always want it to myself. All to myself.

Selfish, no?

I always thought I'd be the kind of person who'd be after the fast life. Like, party, party, play. Have a huge circle of superficial friends, go out, have fun. Date and discard guys in a couple of weeks. The bare bones of a 'rockstar' life, maybe.

And now I don't have that. After the 'O' levels, no, I won't have it either. No parties, no guys, no superficial stab-you-in-the-back friends.

But I have something better. So, so much better.
Someone, rather. And I'm so happy because of you! :D You mean so much to me.

I love you.

grr

There, Shaun said post that.

I feel irritated. I have some cold/flu. I don't think my food's digesting properly, I don't feel too hot. This is annoying. I think my English is going down the drain. Half the time I look at words and I don't think I spell them right. But I don't know. I feel tired.

I found out I rock at photoshop. At least better than many people in my class. Muahaha.

HAHAHAHAHAHAAH fuck this is so funny.
I'm so amused! My father cut a sty out of Dong's eye before! (hey, rhymes!) LOL and Dr Roger Pang and Dr Tan Hooi Hwa (my dad's partners) are his family doctors! hahahahahaha I'm so amused!
I'ts a small, small world!
I'm so amused!
I feel like laughing madly!
This is so funny, it just is!
coooolies!

DONG - I am quitting the guitar and picking up the flute. says:
MING CLINIC!
DONG - I am quitting the guitar and picking up the flute. says:
fuck
DONG - I am quitting the guitar and picking up the flute. says:
DR WONG IS UR FATHER
nicola says:
?
nicola says:
HAHA YES WHY
DONG - I am quitting the guitar and picking up the flute. says:
LOL
DONG - I am quitting the guitar and picking up the flute. says:
dr roger pang and tan
DONG - I am quitting the guitar and picking up the flute. says:
they are my fam
nicola says:
uh huh
DONG - I am quitting the guitar and picking up the flute. says:
doctor
nicola says:
WHAT
DONG - I am quitting the guitar and picking up the flute. says:
and dr wong
DONG - I am quitting the guitar and picking up the flute. says:
cut my eye sty for me once
DONG - I am quitting the guitar and picking up the flute. says:
haha
nicola says:
hahahahhahahahaaahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha shit!!

27th August is D-Day! Or rather, T-day. Terry day. My mother's given him a brief reprieve and now I'm gonna release him into the botanics next Saturday. Crry. At least he'll be happy, no? Sigh. I hope he finds a girlfriend and has lots of kids! hehe.

Anyway, the school is demanding that we purchase two calendars at TWELVE dollars each!! I told my mum about it, and she said there's no way she's going to pay. HAHA so tomorrow I'm gonna tell KMC to cancel my (forced) order, and if she doesn't like it, she'll get an earful from my mother. Muahahaha. Diiiiiiiiiiiiiiie, stupid school, die, die, DIEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!

There was something else I wanted to type here, but I... forgot. Damn. It must be useful to have a memory.

OMG my brother just read me a script he and his friends wrote for their literature class. It's about gangsters! Nig's happy that he's a gangster (in the skit!) cause he gets to run around, say three lines and slash people with a 'parang' oh mann! And there's a ghost and a guy who commits suicide in it to. HAHAHAHAH. Boys.

I have an EXCLUSIVE picture from the future! Yup folks, I've travelled 50 years into the future and have come back with a picture of Dong Tianzhao!


year 2005





And here he is in the year 2055! (Taken with some buddies) :P

HAHA

Don't you sometimes wish you could get into people's heads, just for a little while, and find out what they really think of you? Yes, it may hurt, it may cause relationships to end, but at least you'd know the truth, no?

Don't you wish you knew if that person felt exactly the same way about you as you do about them? For instance, you may view someone as your best friend, or your closest, or only confidant, say, but do they feel the same about you?

Just some random rubbish floating around my head now.

4 more days of school left!!

OH. Does someone wanna adopt my terrapin? PLEASE. Terry's sooo cute! I had some arguement with my mother and now I've got til Wednesday to (quote)"get rid of it". Sigh I wish I didn't have to, I love my green monster!! ):
Help me, please.

I had a dream this morning. A very bad dream. It's disturbing, I never, EVER want it to come true. No no no.
Dreams are actually thoughts from your subconsious mind yeah? So I must have been thinking about it, subconsiously or not.

And I'm so afraid that one day, one day it'll come true.
Grr.
Please, no.

School tomorrow. For another FIVE days. Gloom gloom gloom. I have a permanant case of school blues. It sucks, it gets to the point where I start getting gloomy from Sunday evening all the way to Friday evening, then the mood lets off a bit over the weekend, til Sunday evening again.

):

ok this is stupid I guess I can't convey how I feel without sounding whiny. But if you only can feel what I feel...

"Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day"

The lyrics above are written on a piece of scrap sketchbook paper, torn out and stuck to the side of my desk. I didn't start it, Hwee Ru did! The only time I've heard it was on Sunday, in Topman. Haha. So now when we're bored, sick of lessons, we hum/sing the song (well only the chorus) haha.

Cause for us, every day in school's a bad day.

Chinese O level results were back today. Yup bad day indeed. I... FAILED! Yup. My reputation for being a straight-F9 Chinese student pulled through yet again baby! Sad eh.

But but but! I PASSED MY CHINESE ORAL!! Yes, I got a "P" which means PASS! Whoo.
I can speak Chinese!
Haha , right. We all know the truth. For me, the "P" would be better off meaning 'pathetic'. lol.

I refuse to retake the exam. And I guess lao shi knows it won't really make a difference cause she told me that it was up to me whether I wanted to sit for it again or not.
No no no no no!

i need an mp3 player so badly. gwrah!

Nic's got a new link!

http://nicolaalocin.shutterfly.com

pics pics pics posted here!! (:

the permanant link's under the picture.


I wanna live in the chocolate factory! HAHA

Had dinner at Boat Quay with my mother and brother. It was shit crowded. Saw the fireworks, nice!

I wish I were a firework. Think about it, it's great.
Live fast, look pretty, get loads of people ooh-ing and ahh-ing at you, then when you burn out, you disappear!

"Good morning starshine, the earth says hello!"
-Willy Wonka

National day celebration in school was so utterly rubbish, I refuse to discuss it. Rahh.

GO WATCH CHARLIE AND THE CHOCOLATE FACTORY!!!

Denise and I went today. So so so cool I really love the movie, I really wouldn't mind watching it again and again and again and again and again and again and again... heh.

Johnny Depp (as always) is so cute playing Willy Wonka. It differs a bit from the book, Willy Wonka's more twisted and I liiiiiikeee! (:

And the Oompa Loompas! HAHA that little fat man and his carbon copies are so retarded whahaha.

I want to live in the Chocolate Factory, with Willy Wonka-Johnny Depp to keep me amused and entertained! Yaaay!





I'm very serious.

Really.

Just because I hide my feelings, just because I cover them up with some other emotion doesn't mean I don't have them. Lately I've been feeling too much, and it's been spilling out, it's more than I can keep in. I think that box inside is almost full.

There are some things too personal, too private, too negative, confusing and unfathomable to be written out here for anyone and everyone to read.

I am heading for a

break



down.

Cheer up, emo kid!

Today I kind of freaked everyone out. Collided with Wendy during a basketball match during P.E. She fell and I tripped over her, grazing my palm, elbow and knee in the process. But I'll live. So normally I take physical pain pretty well, but something in me... snapped? and I started to cry, cry, cry.

URGH now I think about it I'm soooo damn embarrassed. How shameful, but falling down just made the day that much worse (was late in the morning but it wasn't my fault -it was my brother's!) So I cried. Stupid kid. Like I lost control of myself and if I wasn't feeling so bloody weird at that moment I would've burst out laughing cause my classmates were so freaked out.

After that I went to wash the grazes and rearrange my face to my normal look. heh. I guess now everyone thinks I'm uber werid. Blergh.

As Mun said:

"cheer up, emo kid!"

Today everything went wrong in school from the word go. After a boring assembly (national anthem/school song got delayed the PA system was down so fuckedup vp lawlimei postphoned it)(incidently, whoever heard of that huh?!) there was chemistry practical. And somebody insisted on squeezing into the same workbench as me and Hwee Ru. ON PURPOSE.
she normally sits in one of the rows in front. She sat with me so that she could copy my work. Finally I got sick of that completely so I told her to go do her own experiment. Not my fault she can't read a single instruction on her own. And if that wasn't bad enough she STANK. Seriously. There's always this gross smell near my seat, after smelling it for a week I've come to the conclusion that it comes from her. PEEEE-EEUUW.

Then was P.E, which is really so fucked up now that Mr Ong's left and we've got Ms "short shit" Liang. Argh we played full court basketball and she plopped herself into the team I was in cause we were a person short. And she can't play for shit, we're better off with one player short.

After P.E, there was recess, where some stupid fucker sec one had no manners, she kept shoving her chair into mine. Fuck I've already got no space then some dickhead goes and whams her chair into mine and glares at me cause I don't move? Not even well mannered to say "excuse me"! fuckingsecones.

Math next and we did the math test. NO TIME whatsoever, if, IF I get all the questions that I completed correct, I'd get a grand total of... 11 marks. Whoop-de-fucking-doo that's 1.5 marks off the passing mark. ARGH failure is immenent. Plus, we were made to change back from P.E after recess and there was hardly any time, and everyone was hot, sticky and smelly, and NOOOO we still have to change! Irrational!


School sucks ass.